I’m sitting here writing this, because I literally can’t talk right now, and for the first time in forever, I feel like I can express my thougths. My throats is so swollen & sore. Today has felt like it’s been forever in coming, and in many ways, it has. It’s been a little over 9 months since the unexpected discovery happened. You never think it will happen to you… at least I didn’t. But then I was blindsided.
To read more about the discovery of my needing a throat biopsy, you can read this post here.
It’s been a roller coaster of emotions this past year. From the joy of finding out we were expecting baby number three, to tears over a possible cancer diagnosis… and several medical professionals saying I might have to abort my baby if the biopsy came pack positive. That was not an option for me. Never. My baby came first, and when anesthesiology refused to do surgery while I was still pregnant, Silas and I decided to wait until the baby was born.
On October 23, our little miracle baby Myles came into the world, at 7.5 lb. He is a little clone of his big brother, which means I once again have a child that looks like his daddy- that’s 3 for 3 everyone!
After a couple days of recovery from Myles being born, it was go time for my long awaited surgery.
I went in this morning, and it all went smoothly. I’m back home now feeling slightly sick & dizzy, with a sore throat from the biopsy, but overall I’m good.
We wait to hear back about the test results, and expect them some time next week.
I was surprisingly calm about the whole process, probably because I’ve been waiting for it to happen for so long… and not to mention, I am holding onto what God out in my heart: That he will give me an abundant long life, that I will search for my enemies and not find them, and I am not to worry about anything.
Looking back at these pictures that were taken about exactly a year ago, I see a woman who thought her life was pretty perfect, and didn’t know her emotions were going to be turned upside down for the next 9 months. Nonetheless, she pulled through, and decided not to let fear cripple & rule her. She is now living some of the sweetest weeks of her life, as she cherishes the newest addition to her family, and is so excited about what the future holds.
Life is what we make it, and I refuse to not live & love to the fullest. So here I am, waiting. Whatever comes, I will stand in hope.